Relapse on Sugar

by Jenifer
(United States)

Hello Stefanie!

I've always been big--when I was born, I was almost 11 pounds! I'm also the tallest girl in my family, standing at 5 feet and 11 inches.
I've struggled with overeating/binge eating for about three years, and just recently have found myself on an almost month long sugar binge after have cutting these foods out of my diet for about a year. I went from weighing 204 pounds to about 168 in two years. Now, I'm scared that with this successive almost month long binge of mine,

I'm terrified that I will gain all of the weight back and become unhealthy again. I've already had history with eating disorders (anorexia) and

I really don't want to start restricting again. I just want to stop obsessing about food, and want some advice from a person who has been in my shoes.


ANSWER

I am going to speak very straight forward; no dancing around the bush. I want to make sure I'm very clear...

It only has to be all or nothing if you make it that way.

So what... you had a bad month? What does that mean?

• Does that mean you are worthless all of a sudden?


• Does it mean you are destined to revert to an eating disorder?


• Does mean you are less of person because you fell back into your old patterns?

It only means these things if you choose them. The beauty of life is that we get to choose.

I am going to tell you right now.... that it does not have to be all or nothing. Mistakes are part of life.

What you can know is that if you've gone into a month long binge on sugar; then you have some beliefs that support you being stuck there. Maybe on a deeper level you don't believe its safe to be slim. Maybe it feels safer to be overweight. That is something that you'll have to be open and honest with yourself about.

You are probably running on autopilot. Your unconscious beliefs could be dictating your choices.

We are not always aware of the beliefs that we hold on an unconscious level.

But we can become aware of them almost effortlessly...

All you have to do is look at your life.

• What does it reflect back to you?


• What are you believing about life, about your body, and what you deserve?

I hope this helps give you some direction. You may find this post helpful as well.



All my Best,

Stefanie