Stuck in a Vicious Cycle

I am a college student who is deeply suffering from a binging disorder. I really don't know how to get out of this cycle- it seems like its almost impossible.

I think that:

(1) I am physiologically addicted to sugar and

(2) am emotionally very deeply lonely

...so I use the numbing sensation of food to try to make up for the fact that there is something missing in my life- but I am not even sure what it is. I just really want to get out of this cycle, but even though I say and think that time and time again, I always seem to end up at the same place...How do I finally break free???

Also, I will soon be going on a cruise ship where it is the world's most "ideal" environment for someone with a binge disorder. Do you have any suggestions for how I can free myself of this constant battle so I can enjoy my vacation?

Thank you for your help.



ANSWER

The vicious cycle. I've been there. And I felt EXACTLY as you just described!

And you are right; binge eating can turn into a large vicious cycle. At times I wondered how I could survive without it; while desperately wanting to stop! Binging perpetuates feeling worthless and lonely and those emotions, in turn, bring on binging.

I wish I could say that by the time your cruise rolls around you'll be 100% over binge eating.
But I can't. This is a process of learning how to use other coping mechanisms instead of eating.

Here are few tips to help you get started:

1- Journal Writing

The BEST tool I ever used was my journal. Or even just a pen and paper; whatever you have available.

I used this to track my emotions and even the time I binged. I didn't do this to make myself feel guilty; but rather to help me see a pattern.

Most binge eaters use food as a way to escape from emotions, stress, etc. When you can identify what your triggers are; you can learn new coping strategies to use instead of food.

2- Find Support

Does anyone in your life know that you wanting to stop binge eating or even that you are struggling? It may be helpful to look for a friend who will support you.

This may help the feeling you're having of being deeply lonely. Having a supportive friend to talk to may help pull you out of "emotional isolation".

If you feel uncomfortable doing this; I'd be happy to help in any way that I am able to.

You may also find my free e-course very helpful.

3- Sugar Addiction

Most emotional eaters and binge eaters are addicted to sugar. One of the biggest reasons is the immediate rush and emotional well being that sugar can provide.

Something that can help is the first tip that I gave you; journal writing. You can use your journal to write whenever you feel the need to load up on sugar. I'm not saying that you have to give up sugar: I didn't.But it may help to cut back and limit the availability of it in your immediate environment.

You may want to check out this page about chocolate addiction, it talks about sugar as well.

I want you to know that you are not alone.
You can do this! I know that it feels nearly impossible; but don't give up! You are more powerful than you know.

All my Best,

Stefanie